It was a hot summer day and I was looking forward to picking up my daughter and taking her to the Rockaways. It would be a full day of running around with her cousin, playing in the sand, and splashing in the water. Although my time with her was short, I was happy she got…
I spent many days in complete and utter despair. I wondered if there was any feeling in this world worse than losing your only child. The pain was unbearable, and I often just cried and cried. I wondered if she was ok. I wondered if she missed me. During my darkest moments I wondered if…
During my marriage I lived fancier than I have ever lived before. We rented a 5 bedroom apartment on the Upper West Side, hiring a professional decorator to make our apartment a little piece of glam heaven. The 12 foot ceilings and cascading living room sunsets made me feel like a real queen living in…
Waiting for your child to be given back to you is one of the most gut-wrenching things a mother can go through. I was told that she would be with me again as soon as a positive forensic report comes out. The judge ordered the report to be done in 120 days, which put the…
129 days after the due date, the forensic report that was supposed to vindicate me was ready to be picked up at the court. 129 extra days without my daughter. By this point I was barely seeing her. A supervised visit was ridiculously expensive and since my husband refused to pay for any of it…
2 days after the forensic report was released, we were scheduled to appear in court. This was the day that supervision was supposed to get lifted, but I was way too beat up to feel any joy. I felt cheated and taken advantage of. I couldn’t understand why there were never any consequences for my…
I never dreamed that this nightmare would drag through my daughter’s 5th birthday. I was sure I would get to celebrate with her and plan a party for all her friends. But, March came and went and I was still seeing my daughter only twice a week with a supervisor present. Her early April birthday…
April 24, 2019. Almost a year since my daughter had been legally kidnapped by her father. I was at the brink of getting the temporary custody order that would give me my daughter back unsupervised half the time. Although I knew the nightmare was almost over, I was still extremely emotional at the thought of…
After the temporary order came out I quickly spiraled into a dark place. I could not eat, I could barely sleep, and every time I got up to walk I felt like my legs were going to give out. Prior to the order I was convinced that the decision was going to be reflective of…
The shock of the Temporary Order was slowly starting to subside. I reached for every coping strategy I learned over the past year, and I reached hard. I surrendered, I payed attention to my ego, I manifested, and I incessantly listened to motivational Podcasts, Youtubes, and Ted Talks. Here are a few: Once again I…
Legally Kidnapped 